Time to Breathe

Last week was probably the most stressful and depressing week of my life...well actually it was the last three days of last week.

I had the crappiest interview, stressful family responsibilities, extremely epic plates, not enough sleep, and no time for myself whatsoever. I felt so stressed, depressed, and sad but cause everything was pilling up I couldn't even feel those things until now.

When I know I did a sucky job it sticks to my head like greco on rubber and its hard for me to move on until I've given much thought to it. They say the worst critic is ourselves right? I have this feeling that myself as a critic is like hell, which is why I have the hardest time whenever I know (at least to myself) that I did a crappy job and the only person who can convince me otherwise is myself as well. So I'd just usually feel like there are two different ideas playing tug of war in my head.

It's just crazy. And this is why I usually want to take vacations so I can work out these conflicting ideas the only thing is vacations don't usually come that often so I end up with tons of conflicting feelings by the end of the school year.

I did a sucky job with my interviews, the defenses I know I could have done better. Now I just need some time and space to accept these failures and move on.

I just thank God for giving me such a wonderful bunch of classmates and friends who can somehow understand my craziness.
I'll miss them all.